TwatsBack wrote: ↑Sat Jun 08, 2019 2:43 pm
Lovely. I have to say that over the last few years I have been actively using meditation to combat my "issues" from an extremely violent past. I see Beauty in so many things now. I am content in my life and not really bothered about material objects, unless it's Gin. Mmmm Gin
I still wonder if I could have done things differently and better?
I've spent the last forty or so years studying philosophy, spirituality and psychology, as well as art, literature and music. Did it academically too, got various degrees I'll never use, trained in psychoanalysis, all because I wanted to know what the point of life was, after a couple of early bereavements. Upshot is, I've got no answers, except proving the old adage that wisdom is knowing that you do not know.
The one thing at the heart of all of it is stillness, silence, being inwardly at rest, just being in the moment, observing and being conscious of what's in front of you. This is where peace lies, and from this perspective it doesn't matter too much what's going on around you. It's that thing about seeing success and failure, and treating both of those imposters the same.
With hindsight, it's usually the mistakes, the failures and the fck ups that have the most to teach us, and are the most valuable life experience. I sometimes look at people who have got it easy, and everything seems to fall right for them, and think, do you really know who you are, or what you're doing? It's easy to live life through a persona which society approves of and rewards, not so easy to deal with letting go of it all as life inevitably diminishes.
Everything is transient, all of our successes and failures amount to nothing in the end. I tend to flip flop between nihilistic despair and ecstatic release in the face of this. That's why football is such a great mirror of life!
Ultimately though, I have a profound sense that everything is fundamentally ok, based on nothing but those fleeting glimpses of beauty... and gin is good too!